One Autistic View

Thursday, 29 July 2021 Was it something I did? was it something I said? kaleidoscope words twisting round in my head. Each innocent word I thought was so clear, churning up waters, distorting ideas. Catching on weeds, disturbing rank silt, rustling spiked sedge root, calmness unbuilt. Mind undercurrents distort thought and word stifle each utterance…

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DBT skills course: continuing saga

For the uninitiated DBT stands for Dialectical Behaviour Therapy. It was devised back in the 1990s specifically for the treatment of individuals diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Even more specifically, it was aimed at young women who were considered impervious to other forms of treatment. The difficult ones. The ones only hardened professionals did not…

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Jargon Judgement

Day two of the DBT Skills Course. Back at home and I slept for 45 minutes this afternoon. That might not seem like a big deal but I very rarely sleep outside bedtime unless I’m ill. What is a big deal is that I’m functioning as opposed to last week when I went into shutdown…

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Do you see yourself as a Bottom-up Thinker?

Many people on the Autism Spectrum are bottom-up thinkers. It’s part of what makes us so different in the way we approach problems, make decisions, assimilate our world. Spoiler Alert! Bottom-up Thinking does not mean you’re autistic. That’s a chicken-and-egg situation where being an egg does not make you a chicken. How does bottom-up thinking…

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Feelings of dread. Not the same as feeling dreadful.

I love words. Thinking about meanings. Considering past meanings. But right now I just don’t care. I am stuck with terrible feelings of dread and it’s going on and on and on. Feelings of impending doom. Thoughts about imminent death. My mind can’t take much more. So I thought I’d write about it. Try to…

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Volume modulation issues

Ever been told to speak up – or tone it down – when you think you’re speaking at a normal level? Happens all the time in my ASC world When noise levels around me get way more than I can bear, I have to reach for my ear defenders. That’s sort of OK for me…

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