When the struggle is brushing unbearable, part 3

Reason to go on: Bloody-mindedness Wanting to be back teaching but without the relentless pressures I’d had in my last post, I applied for positions with little responsibility outside my classroom. Even so, I only managed 12 months. In my second post the bullying by senior colleagues, over just one term, pushed me to the…

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When the struggle is brushing unbearable, part 2

Reason to go on: External Pressures Urged by family and school I applied for a place at Uni and even my psychiatrist thought university would ‘do me good’. One day I was on a hospital ward in Essex, the next I was being driven to the digs in Glasgow someone had arranged for me.Two more…

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When the struggle is brushing unbearable …

what makes us go on? Fear? External pressures? Money? Guilt? Bloody-mindedness? Survival? While the answer will depend on the person and the situation, the bottom line is – we have to.The luxury of ‘not having to’ is so often dependent on also having the luxuries of autonomy and choice that most of us cannot conceive.…

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Do number patterns regulate your day?

Just like the rhyme3 – 6 – 9work for me every time. Actually, any multiple of 3 is good. I feel more settled in a café when my table number, or the food order number, has a root of 3. When setting the cooker timer I choose the closest 3-root number to that required for…

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Self-harm: additional thoughts

I wanted to emphasise that my poems are just that – a succinct way of expressing profound thoughts and feelings in a moment in time. I’ve received a lovely, personal, and caring response to my poem Reconnect that made me think about how others may have read it. Here is my explanation of my thoughts…

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Self-harm: the taboo topic we need to talk about

One of the biggest problems about self-harm is its taboo status. Very recently the tragedy of it hit the headlines. People, especially young people, were found to be searching on-line for information. Not for support. Not for self-help. But for information. The ultimate tragedy of that was the way it highlighted the fact that they…

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