Music is a stabilising aspect of my life. Do you need music in your day? Or perhaps you’d rather do without.
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Social Overload – Shutdown – but the end does come. Eventually.
I’ve just come to after a deep, impenetrable sleep. Almost three hours of shutdown as my head recharged itself. Previous to that had been three hours of cold that nipped at my core, of weariness that sapped my lifeblood, of numbness than silenced me. What goes on in my head at these times? Just as…
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From me to you
Following on from my previous post today I would like to share more thoughts with you. And the way I like to express how I feel is often through verse. So here goes, from my heart and head to yours. My body’s feeling better, not completely – give it time But healing faster than my…
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Feelings of dread. Not the same as feeling dreadful.
I love words. Thinking about meanings. Considering past meanings. But right now I just don’t care. I am stuck with terrible feelings of dread and it’s going on and on and on. Feelings of impending doom. Thoughts about imminent death. My mind can’t take much more. So I thought I’d write about it. Try to…
Read MoreDissociation: going to a place that’s sometimes scary, always safe
Two days ago I experienced a distancing between brain and body. I knew I was dissociating. What was happening? Why was it happening? How did it feel? I’ve certainly experienced similar situations before. But why this time? What had caused it? social / sensory overload; being out and about in different situations I describe this…
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Getting ear defenders: shutting out noise could help open up my world
Better day today. Even coped with the dental assistant who appeared to be able to create excessive noise from even the simplest of tasks. No bin, no drawer escaped being banged as it was closed. But I made it out with a clean bill of health. I’ve ordered ear defenders as the noise cancelling headphones…
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