Reasons to go on: Poems, part 4

Reason to go on: Bloody-mindedness In sickness A pail of depression; A fist of anger; A sweated brow of anxiety; A deep well of despair; A flight of fear; Simmer together for 50 years. Drink the evil broth. The show must go onJust one cut, then another, slice through skin smooth and thin;blade drawing criss-cross,…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 2

Reason to go on: External Pressures Conformist I do not look as you look: burn out my eyes, make them mirrors. I do not feel as you feel: unpeel my skin; cement with stones. I do not think as you think: pluck out my mind; integrate with circuits. Mirrors, stones, and circuits feel no pain.…

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When the struggle is brushing unbearable, part 2

Reason to go on: External Pressures Urged by family and school I applied for a place at Uni and even my psychiatrist thought university would ‘do me good’. One day I was on a hospital ward in Essex, the next I was being driven to the digs in Glasgow someone had arranged for me.Two more…

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Must we Conform? a poem about fitting in

must we conform, make ourselves fit? or mould ourselves slowly, bit by bit, inch ourselves in, by stealth and by lie not letting them see just how hard we try to smile when they joke, cry when they fall, reflect their emotions, jump at their call, nod our agreement, frown our displeasure, forget all our…

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Self-harm: additional thoughts

I wanted to emphasise that my poems are just that – a succinct way of expressing profound thoughts and feelings in a moment in time. I’ve received a lovely, personal, and caring response to my poem Reconnect that made me think about how others may have read it. Here is my explanation of my thoughts…

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Reconnect: a poem about self-harm

I’m so pissed off that nothing’s right I’m tired – and weary – I’ve no more fight. I’ll use a blade or a cigarette – Anything to let me RECONNECT. I’ll hurt no-one I’m no-one’s threat; Only I feel the pain and pay my own debt. Why are YOU angry? Why are YOU sad? It’s…

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