I’ve just come to after a deep, impenetrable sleep. Almost three hours of shutdown as my head recharged itself. Previous to that had been three hours of cold that nipped at my core, of weariness that sapped my lifeblood, of numbness than silenced me. What goes on in my head at these times? Just as…
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My friend has gone I feel exhausted by smiles that have no depth by words that have no meaning things to say to while away the hours minutes seconds of her stay relieved to say my friend can’t stay but who can clear the fall-out, the fear and stay quite near now that my friend…
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Reason to go on: External Pressures Urged by family and school I applied for a place at Uni and even my psychiatrist thought university would ‘do me good’. One day I was on a hospital ward in Essex, the next I was being driven to the digs in Glasgow someone had arranged for me.Two more…
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I can’t be with others in a noise-gang which smothers; their shouting and rage would fill up this page with cursing and ranting with wheezing and panting with foul-mouthed bluster; a brain-dead cluster of anger and sport – no words of comfort. Don’t mind them alone, on the end of a phone, if they use…
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I have been very quiet for a week now. For the last three years I have come to the Hay Literary and Arts Festival and it is always a roller-coaster week. The difference this year is that I know why. The reasons are the usual suspects: noise overload, people overload, changing routine, uncertainty over what…
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What can bring it on? We have a lovely friend visiting for a few days. He’s a very quiet, gentle, understanding gent. A perfect guest. And we want to show him the delights of where we live as he’s never been here before. Absolutely no problem for my husband who’s 95% neuro-typical. But I’m way…
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marilyn unmasked 