Today’s not getting any better…

but at least I know things will improve. Soon. Many people don’t have that luxury. I am humbled by that knowledge. My problem? I’ve been feeling unwell for a few days. Physical stuff. Until I can get to see the Surgery Practice Nurse I won’t know if it’s tonsillitis or not. In the meantime I’m…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 5

Reason to go on: Survival Reaching out Reaching out into the darkness I catch at emptiness. Feelings cannot penetrate the armour plating of my thoughts. SecretsShh! Don’t breathe a word – not a syllable to a soul, share my secret, take my burden as your own.Shh! Listen to me – not a word to pass…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 4

Reason to go on: Bloody-mindedness In sickness A pail of depression; A fist of anger; A sweated brow of anxiety; A deep well of despair; A flight of fear; Simmer together for 50 years. Drink the evil broth. The show must go onJust one cut, then another, slice through skin smooth and thin;blade drawing criss-cross,…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 3

Reason to go on: Guilt Fragment see how she glimmers thin sliver of light, she smiles out my name answers cries to unite; she winks through the rainbow shares secrets so sweet plays the game to perfection; till we’re ready to meet. she touches my mind caresses my soul kisses my skin: we are ready…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 2

Reason to go on: External Pressures Conformist I do not look as you look: burn out my eyes, make them mirrors. I do not feel as you feel: unpeel my skin; cement with stones. I do not think as you think: pluck out my mind; integrate with circuits. Mirrors, stones, and circuits feel no pain.…

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Reasons to go on: Poems, part 1

Reason to go on: Fear Lurking in my HeadWho’s that lurking in my head recounting what I do describing minute, hour, day what to think, what to say; you to me; me to you what you thought, what you said spewing lies and fearful dread, Who’s that lurking in my head? Creating My SelfI have…

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