Hating OCD: and it’s not a diagnosed problem for me

I really feel for those of you with OCD as a diagnosed condition.

Mine is a by-product of other difficulties, but it sucks.

At the moment I’m so tired of having to retrace my steps to give the very centre of my door knobs a final push. And touching the edge of the lever handles. And touching the end of my cooker knobs. And corded light switches.

I tell myself it’s stupid. That I don’t need to do it. But there’s an absolute compulsion and every time I go back. Every. Time.

Right now I’m struggling to type this because I now have the compulsion to blink really hard to the point of squeezing my eyes shut. What’s that about?

If you have experience of this. If you have strategies. Please share.